Ramblings of My Heart and Soul

Sweetheart,

Happy 1st Birthday! I can only hope that you know how much your Daddy and I love you. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and what you might be doing now. Eat a big piece of chocolate cake today and be sure to make a mess!

I love you so much,
Mama

A year ago today, the world stopped turning.

My first (and last) ultrasound.

Suddenly I am "incompatible with life."

Dreams were shattered as a tornado ripped through my heart.

I have no idea where October has gone.

Oh yeah... I forgot that it was a year ago, not just a few days.

I have no idea where the last year has gone.

I still talk to people like September 2008 was only a few weeks ago.

Because it is for me.

The fog that I live in blurs time and space.

No one knows that the world has stopped, frozen in time.

The worst part... today is my Husband's birthday.


How do I make this up to him... ever?